I didn't create this blog to write personal posts but you know when something is just on your mind and you need to get it off your chest? Well this is it.
For the last couple of weeks of sixth form, one particular girl made my life hard. I made a mistake more than a year ago and she felt like it was time to tell everyone. She was my best friend and I trusted her with everything and that's what I got in return.
I had to leave my group of 'friends' as I didn't feel comfortable and I did NOT want to be anywhere near her.
I understand that I made a mistake and it was wrong but everyone makes mistakes, no one's perfect and I deserve what I get off the girl I hurt. No one else.
I never ever retaliated once to their constant talking about me, and even the fact that their was a Facebook group made about me, other than delete them all off Facebook so I didn't have to read their sad comments about me, and I even got abuse off them for deleting them? Work that one out.
I still haven't told her how she's made me feel but oh my god, I am dying to. She thinks she got away with what she done to me and that really gets to me.
When thinking about this, the thought always comes to my mind...should I just be the bigger person? Should I let her get away with what and how she made me feel? Then there's the other thought....I could tell everyone what she's really like, all those people who think they are good friends with her, they have no idea what she said about them, but I am not that sort of person to go and hurt other people purposely. It just get's to me that she has done this to me, made me an outcast and hate going to the last few weeks of school.
I thought I'd never have to see her again until I found out she's coming to the same Uni as me but thankfully is at another campus. Hate is a strong word, but I actually hate what she did to me and how she turned everyone against me.
My Mam says that they can't have been my friends if they chose to take her side and watch her bully me. I suppose she's right but it still hurts to think that they aren't my friends and didn't help me. People I've known for 7 years...they agreed with what she had said but not what she had done...then, why didn't you help me?
I still find it hard and all because of Facebook, how sad right? And I know the solution is to delete my Facebook but then I think why should they win? Why should they bully me, make me an outcast, humiliate me and then practically force me off something I really like?
Has anyone gone through something like this? I hate her. I really do.